However unplanned my pregnancy was, it was NEVER unwanted. Honestly, I did not have many aspirations before I got pregnant. I worked enough to just get enough money for paying for my gas to get to work, to pay for my insurance and some few personal expenses. At that time, I simply had enough and I did not get swayed by parents to get back to college-all I thought was that my minimum wage was enough for my expenses.
Although I still lived with my aunt, I felt somehow independent and getting by was fine for me. However, all this changed the moment I realized I was pregnant. I and my boyfriend moved in together in September and things were wonderful between us. However, I started feeling awful about my life; I needed to get a better job in order to be able to raise my child in a better life even without the help of my spouse (just in case things changed between us). I therefore decided the best thing I had to do was go back to college and take on a degree course that could offer me a quality financial stability.
Well, it was on a beautiful Monday morning when I got my first baby boy. The baby was so tiny and cried a lot and as a first mother, this worried me a lot. However, my doctor advised me on how to take care of the little boy and believe me; I was getting better each and every day. Life became no longer about me, but about my family. I started thinking more about my baby and less about me. The birth of my son became a monumental change and I did not ask for anything different. All I wanted was my son. You could take everything, my job, my house, my very life or anything mine, but just give me back my lovely king, safe and sound.
They say children are blessings, and I second this with confessions. My son really changed my life in a way I did not expect. I become a better and more focused person. My priorities shifted in a positive way, and I know I became a better woman, wife and mother after that scare. I have now to step up take a plate, be responsible for supper and worry concerning everything about my family, unlike before when I got everything from my aunt. I am now a responsible and changed woman, and my child is my life, my first priority and nothing will ever change that.
