Example Of Hard To Retain Spanish Essay

I think it would be wonderful to become Spanish speaker, and to this end I have taken the required Spanish classes, worked hard on my own time to study, and even gone far as to get tutors to help me. No matter how hard I tried to do well, it was always very difficult for me to memorize and retain it. I wondered why, when I was working harder than my classmates I was struggling more than those who seem to put less time into it.
I have taken Spanish and needed to drop it 3 times. For me it has always been my most difficult class, more challenging than all of my other classes combined. It seemed like no matter how much time I spent memorizing vocabulary that the next day, or for test time, it had suddenly disappeared. By the third week of class, despite working very hard to keep up, I would become confused and feel like I had fallen into a hole that I was unable to dig myself out of.
This was an ongoing frustration that did not make sense to me, that I was working harder and getting worse results. Upon further investigating the matter looking for some plausible explanation for my deficiency in learning Spanish I did some research and I learned about different patterns of intelligence. That some people have an natural aptitude for language and that others have an average aptitude, and some, and I suspect I am on of them, have a deficiency and block in their ability to learn language. This does not mean that they are not intelligent in other areas, but it does mean that language acquisition is many times more difficult than the average student.
I did need some more concrete backing rather than just my suspicion that this was the problem, so I got myself tested and obtained a copy of a phychoeducation report. Reading through it was revealing, and confirmed my suspicions, that my cognitive processing skills were weak across all cognitive domains. Also, my results indicated that I had a very low range for long term storage and retrieval, weaknesses in short term memory and processing speed.
I mention this not as a sob story, but simply relaying understandings of the challenges I have with Spanish, and other areas. I believe that my work ethic will make up for these deficiencies in life, but Spanish classes are not currently enhancing my life. They are taking away valuable time that I could be using in other areas and classes. The purpose of an education is to teach things that will be retained and useful in the future. As I am simply unable to retain what I learn in class, and am at a cognitive disadvantage for being able to do so, I believe that learning Spanish, or the attempt at learning Spanish is taking away from my life, not enhancing it. It is simple never going to happen that I learn Spanish, and I hope that there is enough situational awareness to make an exception in my case and allow me to switch it for another subject. This would allow me to not only learn something tangible and that I am capable of learning, but free up the much time that I consider wasted in a Spanish class, given my cognitive disadvantages in that area of study.
Thanks for your understanding and consideration,