I still remember, very vividly and clearly, what you last wrote to me. Each of those
words pierced my heart. I still have that letter of yours and every time I miss you, I read
that letter even if that means immense pain and nostalgia.
A famous adage goes like this, ‘Love always elevates the character of man. It never lowers
him, provided love be love.’ And since the time you left, each and every moment I have
realized that you were my love, my true love since you have elevated my character,
changed me for better and transformed me into someone you always wanted me to be.
People find inspiration with different things; I always did and always will find it in you.
when I face any trouble or problem and amazingly your thoughts give me willpower and
strength to face such problems.
I know you will find all these things hollow for you don’t trust me a bit. I broke your trust in
every possible way and always took you for granted, but believe me, I regret it every
moment of this life I am living. You were the best thing that happened to me ever and
loosing you was the most tragic thing that happened to me. It’s been all pain for me since
you have left me. Happiness has eluded me; my smile (which you once loved) has vanished
and my feelings for everything else, but you, have drowned.
But admist all this, I have tried and changed myself. I have strived to improve in every
possible aspect. I am no more a selfish and self-caring guy you once knew and hated me for.
Happiness for me no more means just ‘Me’. I have become much more inclusive in my
thinking and value others, their feelings and emotions with utmost care. Your love,
even though no more mine, still inspires me to better myself and change my attitude for
others.
Even as I write this, I can feel tears rolling down my eyes, through my cheeks and into my
lap; which by now has become very used to them. I deserve it, I know. For all the suffering
and pain I gave you, this was something I had to go through. I remember you telling me to
be happy always, but my happiness is with you and will always be.
I am the person today you always expected me to be. I am happy today for I have reached
the point where I can expect to be a part of your life, even though just as a friend.
I have learnt from all my past mistakes to correct myself thoroughly and have come out
refined as a person true and pure in every aspect. I am a much more trustworthy and
reliable person now and can assure you that I am worth your faith and trust now.
Loss of your love has been an everlasting pain and I am going to feel it till my last breath,
but the same love of yours gives me courage to fight this pain; believe me, I have fought real
hard with myself and to change myself. Even though I still crave for your love, I have
recovered and learned to move on. I have learnt and realized that changes are inevitable
and regard our separation as a change which had to happen. Though I have consoled myself
and my spirit and moved on, I know I have changed and that I am a better person now. I
have become someone you tried so hard to turn me into. I will always be thankful to you for
these changes and the spirit of life you inculcated in me.
Though I am going to miss you forever, but I reckon it’s time to accept the truth and move
on!
